... So sorry...
You know that this work is above all about sharing our passion, and therefore it must primarily be pure pleasure, and nothing else.
When we have such serious problems, it is above all necessary to pay as much attention to our health as possible and therefore (and by logic) not to do anything that is harmful to your health.
Take good care of yourself, young mate.
I leave you a big hug full of tenderness.
LOVES
(PS: I'm really sorry I never came to talk to you before ... - I didn't know you really had this kind of problem ... - by dint of reading so much bullshit on the internet, I don't believe in nothing more of what people have been saying for a very long time.)