apparently its always my fault if i dont understand something correctly. because i wasnt listening or paying attention. not because my brain just forced me to think a different way no it's because i wasnt listening. never my parents fault because they're so goddamn perfect and and way more mature than me. because i mean they know everything right? everything my parents say is the holy law and if i so much as question they will rein their fiery rage and power of destruction upon me. i should worship them for even thinking of interacting with me.