I understand the frustration! But there are audiences for all kinds of art, and I'm sure you'll find some people who appreciate the amount of work you put into what you do. I keep things simple here both out of necessity (file size budget, time/energy) and because I'm not an especially skilled artist in any technical sense. So I'm not the right person to ask for how to be a "better" artist, but I wish you luck on your journey c: