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spoilers ahead, please look away if you haven't played the game yet.

at first, I was captivated by the game's incredible visual style. but when I started playing, I found out that things that I did because I wanted to (like meeting a goth gf) were rewarded with another girl dying and me being guilty for it. uhm... okay, it took the game 15 minutes to make me a bad guy. let's try being a good guy now! in my second playthrough, i did nothing except babysitting may (who, despite my best efforts, remained very persistent about killing herself), and got the 'best' possible outcome, which is... may is alive. wow! was this supposed to inspire me? in what way?

but I'll get to that later. so, the best ending is the one where when we don't even talk to the other girl, don't do anything out of the 'save may' lane, and literally subdue our smallest actions to may's needs? great! the message here is hard to miss ('don't overlook the signs, someone may be crying out for help while you don't even notice'), but the story deliberately leaves out this: keeping a wounded, problematic, deeply disfuctional individual from commting a suicide is VERY heavy, burdening and in no way romantic. (been there. should have listened to the trigger warning. nauseating.) 

what have we got instead? the game's visuals are stunning, its atmosphere powerful, but all the artistic magnificence serves a superficial story that basically romanticizes suicide. i've read some comments from below, the 'I/my friend wanted to commit suicide, and I cried my eyes out', and you know what? i think the only way for a player to enjoy this game is to associate themselves with may. if somebody is hurt, suffering or depressed, it's easy for them to accept the message so easily reversed: I am in pain! if you don't give me attention, I'll die! My fate is not in my hands, it is in yours! how comforting it must be, for a 'maylike' player, to feel that somewhere, in a beautifully painted wonderful world, they are finally getting the unlimited attention they craved. 

to a player without this scorching desire to be tenderly cared about, the game feels different. when you prevent someone's suicide, your reaction is a mix of relief, fear, and anger (with a burst of affetion if you rescue your loved one - a classic hurt/comfort cliche). when I saved may, I just rolled my eyes. i didn't associate myself with her, I didn't want to take care of her because I didn't care about her, I just wanted to live my life like I do in reality.  and this is.... the most horrifying part, because in reality, when you leave someone and go to a date just to return later and find that person dead by suicide, it is SUPER hard to convince yourself that their blood is NOT on your hands - but your game is telling us that it actually IS! The most obvious way to play, to do our thing and go to a date, leads to May's death, and it is CLEARLY SHOWN that it's our fault.

so real the message is this. if someone, even a person we don't really know and care about, commits suicide after you didn't do something the way they wanted/needed you to do, it is your fault. their life is not in their hands. their decision doesn't belong to them, but depends on how much attention you pay to their wellbeing, even if it costs you your own personal life. and this isn't just stupid, this is dangerous for all those gentle mayflowers out there who would accept the idea not as 'help others' but 'others should help me', killing themselves if not surrounded with unconditional love and care.

tldr: the visuals are gorgeous, but the writing sucks, and the whole point is unhealthy.

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That is very interesting Moonbird.

Imagine if both May and the “Goth GF” were both suicidal in the same exact way and as soon as you finished spending that day with May the “Goth GF”‘s last message on your laptop was “Too late, it’s not your fault.”

It would become impossible (much like it is in real life) to help everyone simultaneously and you would still be villainized for playing favorites and helping one person over the other (or choosing the closest person).

I hope the actual take away is – dedicate all of your time to improving your own (and your loved ones) mental health and do your best to not commit suicide as it will only bring down the people who do care.