This novel did some things to me. I cried, I was outraged, I was joyous, and I was occasionally downright paranoid. (For good reason!) All the emotion that this masterpiece made me feel cannot be put into just one comment. But, I also must point out that all these spectacular emotions that made this story so grand, are also my biggest problem. Because of this story I find that I am now unable to sleep, eat, drink, or do much of anything. I find that in their stead, all I can do is think about the many thoughts that this incredible story has provoked. Thoughts such as whether I will ever find a partnership, relationship, whatever the title may be, as pure and sweet and perfect as the one MC and Amicus share, and will enjoy when their missions are finished. Another thought is what lies in store for me at the end. If I do find someone, I know I wont be able to spend over 300 years with them, but after we depart this world, would it be possible for us to drift peacefully together, reliving the best moments of our life together? Is there anything waiting after the end at all? What about the possibility of life beyond our world? It is close minded of us to believe that we are the only living beings in the cosmos. What are the odds of the other life forms out being similar to those depicted in this novel? Slim, I'm sure, but never EVER zero. In all honesty, I feel that I could fill a book with just the ponderings that this experience has left me with. Last thing, and the most minute of all. This may sound dumb, but if MC and Amicus get to meet in the new game (Khemia, I believe it is called), I hope MC can use the name I gave him. I know that MC is not my character, and I am just sort of spectating on the author and MC's story, but in my eyes, Amicus did not fall in love with "Marco", he fell in love with the character whose name directly ties to the emotion of the story for me. I don't know if this will reach anyone of import as far as this story goes, but if it does, I would like to let them know how incredible this world they've created is. Thank you for this experience, and thank you for reading my whole rant if you did.
Hey man, this is exactly how I felt, the scene where we see the future absolutely broke me. Seeing a story like that makes real life seem hopeless by comparison, I'm so sad that I will never get to experience anything like that. I don't know if replying to comments sends a notification or anything but I'd love to talk about it more, I'll try to find you.