Oh my god. I have no words. Actually I have several. I... relate to this way too much. Having to lie about yourself on your papers, the depression, the hopelessness, the COMPULSIVE LYING AS A DEFENSE MECHANISM, OBSESSING over the ONE person that cares about you but you feel like it's only clinical. I hate this and I love it. You ripped out my dumb stupid heart and exposed it to... me.