ow. ow ow ow ow. this was a fascinating, unique and haunting read. a lot of this hit really hard, especially the parts about asexuality and the mc's mother wanting to assimilate him into living as a white american as much as possible.
this hits on an anxiety on how even upon expressing one's own feelings/criticisms on systems of power from a place of trauma, that will inevitably end up swallowed up by the culture at large and nothing will be learned. the ending is difficult to talk about in this regard without making a spectacle out of the mc like he doesn't want. made me feel uncomfortable and nauseous.