are you kidding??? i felt like when he was saying that, he meant he loves and misses us like a normal needy partner would do- including with the fact that we were long distance.thats no fucking way on how to imply that he was going to die or commit suicide. he wouldnt say 'awww but i wish we can spend more time together!' like as if a long distance partner misses being together. if hes implying that he wants to die, he wouldve showed signs not 'uwu' hints- like serious fucking hints that he was going to do that to himself.
this isnt a monika thing where he breaks the fourth wall and implies that he might die, this was a realistic relationship and someone who committed suicide with no signs of depression.