ela is so cute and sweet and precious, its messed up that she had to go to work all by herself. aleks needing to feel useful / feel in control as someone who exists to uphold executive function, and thereby being The Hated One feels so real. i love kornelia's design and how analytical she is as part of her autism, but how much her inexperience sets her up for failure. I wanna squeeze roksana tight and tell her she's gonna be ok, even though she did all that. I wanna help her find outlets for her feelings, but i'm not entirely certain that's something she'd ever want or trust to make her feel ok. The drive for total self-annihilation and debasement is so hard to appease, because doing it in an "unhealthy" way is often the point!!