Thank you for sharing this.
[edit]: I know it wasn’t the point of the essay. But, could relate to the eye-liner issue as well, as I always had baggy eyes (not sure this is the right English word for it >.<). So, no cool-girl eyeliner for me either. Not saying this to diminish your experience. I heard the eye lid surgery is a topic many Asian girls living in western countries consider. And even when they go through with it, the othering consists. It’s infuriating.
I like using Godot by now, even though coding is still a very time-consuming trial and error process for me. I found the font support fantastic and I guess that motivated me to stick with it. I also like that you can change the interface of the engine. Sometimes these small things keep me motivated to stick with a program. Glad you picked it up again and again.