It is always difficult to live, when your inner world can't fit the reality. In most of the cases pursuing the goal to transform the reality into something more appropriate for you is completely pointless. It always causing the loss of resources, time and sometimes even yourself. And even reveal own emotions and thoughts to someone causes only pain as circumstances, eventually people just start using it against you to hurt you more.
We all in the same boat kind of. And nobody know what to do with all that. It is sad.