Thanks for the insight, all of what you wrote gives me some idea of what to expect in regards to the "events."
The last paragraph is especially cringe for me because, in my experience, i do tend to chase the worst people without even realizing - whether it be naivety or pure stupidity. That is to say, growing up for me was not falling in love with DL men lol (I live in red south). I guess thats reflected even in my furry VN somehow.