So this might be a stretch, but you're an agent of despair in a body? It's why the dot counter goes down when you collect them, you're collecting hope. You start on a buttoned shirt, move up to the head, enter an 'eye' with rods and cones. If you go down, there's floor or legs? but it's external so of course there's no manifestation of hope outside the head. Maybe I'm reading into it too much tho... I had fun!