do you ever feel like you cant care about what is supposed to be the most important thing in your life
you think about it you repeat it over and over in your head that it matters to you it is you it is who you are and yet you are lying
because you are nothing but facade and in that you found beauty in that you found meaning but there is still such lack
this answer, this lack, in black and white spiraling downwards towards nothing, the illusion of movement, the desire to change, you feel it, it cannot be illusion
yet when you put your hands up to your eyes,