IS THERE A HAPPY ENDING OR WHAT.
i dunno, it resembles me in a way I don't like, I got sweet but aloof. I don't like showing affection, but I do. I just don't want to be stupid, I have this guy named Y that i'll call him since that's his initial. I don't want to be an avoidant lover I want to be able to express everything I feel, nothing is ever his fault, not his problems, not his life, not even his friends who haven't done anything to me but I don't like for some reason, those things aren't his fault. I never feel like he's done anything to deserve those problems and I try to carry them all , each time we find our way back to each other again. I was never proud of myself as a kid and I never experienced the love and praise I probably should've gotten from my mother but my Y gives me all of that and more and it's unfamiliar and uncharted territory, I would think I would have gotten used to it after dating him for a year, but I haven't. There are days where I feel like I can do anything and those are usually with him, but sometimes I don't feel those days because of something that happened that didn't have to do with him, which meant I can't hold a simple conversation. I'm a man, a man who yearns but half the time I feel like the yearning isn't enough to hold myself and him up. I'd watch him if we ever watched the fireworks together. I've replayed this game to try to see if there's a better ending almost as many times as i've gone back to him. Each time I still get the aloof one. I try to mix things up in both the game and me and him and it still follows the same way.
He's the knife I turn inside myself.