>-< I'm so glad it resonated with you so much, I channeled a lot of my own feelings and those of my friends who struggle with hopelessness and dysfunction and the like into it, but I'm more glad that you say "spent" rather than "spends". It will be okay some day and you've already taken that first step it seems.
Also I tried to imply it rather than stating it outright, but the character you play as is meant to be a trans guy as well! I hope that was able to get through.