I could tell while I was playing this that I was going to have no idea how to write a review for it. There's so much in this story and it encompasses so many emotions that I feel like I don't have the words to easily sum up how I felt after reading it. There's enough in here to write an entire essay about. I actually had to take breaks while playing it because it was just too tense to play all in one go - I remember when I took one and then loaded it up again an hour later and immediately went "HOW AM I ONLY HALFWAY THROUGH?!" I felt like I had no idea how long it was going to be or how far through I was, which admittedly was a little frustrating, but I think strengthened the themes really well. The good and the bad started to blend together a bit and it felt like watching lives play out rather than reading a story, I had no way of telling what was going to happen next so everything felt like a surprise.
The cycles of better again, worse again, better again, worse again were really intense. It was nerve-wracking watching some people get better while others got worse, or some people get worse while others got better. The whole thing felt like watching someone balance plates and just waiting to see which one fell first. It tied in well with the...puppygirl factory? Which I did keep wanting to see explained but wasn't holding my breath for, since I could tell it was very metaphorical in nature. Where there's a cyclical churn of some sort going on. It really did feel like it highlighted how disposable society tends to view trans people as.
I think my favorite scene was the one where everyone was coming to Audrey for help, it was so nerve-wracking. It was soooooo much to watch her get increasingly drunk as just about everyone she knew started coming to her for advice on stuff.