This is Weirdo. I'm glad you're alive and hope you feel better soon! Stay safe.
Hey there Moss-shadow. This is actually Genny015. I lost my acount months ago and hadn't been able to make a new one. I get that it's been a while, but I'm so sorry about what happend to you... Hope you're getting better but most importantly, I hope you're actually feeling better than you were, because that's whole the point of life! Don't listen to those online, doing so is hurting yourself.
Since I don't know about your conditions right now, you don't have to listen to my advice if you don't want to, but I truly wish you good luck with your path :)
P.S. I'm 13 or plus, so don't worry about that!