I read your edits. You don’t owe anyone an explanation for how you feel. If you’re upset, that’s valid. But I’m glad you’re not letting TAS or anyone else push you out of something you enjoy. Also, someone like TAS should know better, especially when it comes to new players. Making someone feel bad or unwelcome just because they’re new is straight up wrong. That’s not how a community should act. Take your time, but remember you’ve got people who respect you and want you here. Don’t let the loud ones drown that out