I really feel for you Jonesy. I know the reality of what you have gone through all too well. My father passed away in August 3 years ago and my mother followed him just 5 months later. After like 85 years of marriage she just could not live on without him. This left my 4 year younger brother and 6 year younger sister hit harder than I was since they all lived in Athens Alabama. I am still out west with my family and with the pandemic restrictions I was not able to go see my father before he passed. To top things off my sister finally lost her battle with heart damage from some kind of viralent flu. She passed away back on March of this year. All that I have left in my immediate family is now my brother and he threw a fit with me over my not being able to visit our parents or my sister before they passed. Now we are estranged and not talking to each other. Real life hurts.. Too many folks do not understand how it can affect people directly envolved. From emotions to creativity to just being able to get out of bed in the morning. On not. But we all have to strive to find a way to keep going and move on. To push through the pain and loss. It helps when others respect that. So I am sharing my experience and my respects for what you have had to deal with. I will keep you in my thoughts and hopefully my share here will help open the eyes of those who do not think about how real life can have such an affect on anyone so they can grasp what you have been through and share stronger, more appropriate support for you. Keep pushing and striving Jonesy.. WE ARE ROOTING FOR YOU! Share my condolenses with your brother. I know he has and is suffering as much as you are. Support each other. Don't let things go off the rails like they did between me and my brother. I don't know if or when we might get our relationship repaired but I can only hope for the best since we are not talking to each other at present. Forgiving and forgetting has to be a 2 way street and he is having nothing to do with it. Don 't let it happen to you and our brother.
Best wishes for you both and your families, if it applies.