Same here, buddy. This genre of hentai has damaged me to the point where I stopped seeking romantic relationships. And why I struggle to trust anyone, even more than I already did. I lost faith in romantic relationships, and refuse to remarry (me ex was unfaithful, which didn't help). Now I feel nothing, and seek nothing, beyond a platonic friendship at most. And it was this genre that broke something inside of me. Idc if people think I'm weak because of it. It's depressing and soul-crushing, and people who enjoy this stuff are sick, and don't deserve relationships.