alright.. so uhhhm here's my long ahh speech to everyone who misses me a lot after i left the mod and the Game itself.
So to begin with the speech. I'm not Dead (I'm Still alive). i Know y'all wanted me to Stay here with the bois but Due to my Mental Breakdown. i had no other choice but to Leave from the Mod. Hoping that i'll Never Return and won't associate with the OG MvLO Game By Ipodtouch0218 and some Mods.
My Experience with the Original Game when i got here is like I Was Playing NSMB Vs Mode but Online. so it was either good and shit (Despite of all the Drama that has Happened in KKT). i had a lot of Fun with Players but Dealed a ton of Toxic Players, Bullies, Trolls, Etc on my Own with no one on my side.. it's like i was Lonely and Defenseless in a War. i never had any friends in the past, or a Girlfriend, Nothing.. Just me. and all of the accusations against me just because i was Camping, Dominating, Mocking. i found it Very Painful and Not a single Soul Defended me or did anything about it. it felt very horrible like if i was Stabbed in the Heart, i tried to move on and ignore the Players who hated me but no avail.. But All of it was Changed When i got here in this Mod, everything was Different, i've met New Players (Despite That i still hated TAS a lot).. assigned to be in a Gang with a lot of Skilled Players (i Used to Hate them but i got over with) and Somewhat made friends with.. but what they didn't know.. is that i only had one friend that was not from the MvLO KKT Mod. nor the OG.. it was from a FNF Community after i joined (that friend's Name was Gianna Brazelton/Tzumi). i was Scared that if everyone Knows i had a friend from that Community so i had to keep it a secret away from anybody else but me and Started a New Journey that was Endless, i didn't had good Skills during matches just like in OG MvLO (note: i did Actually Beat TAS in OG MvLO when his Username was "SpeedrunnerMario" or smth like that). but i've never felt satisfied or happy.. When PK And Amy Started "Dating" Somehow Back in OG MvLO (if i'm correct) while i was in the lobby with the bois, i felt very sad knowing that i never had a Girlfriend. nor i had one. and i didn't want to tell my friends that i never experienced any love from a girlfriend so i had to keep myself quiet... Moments Later when My Friends Started to Beat/Dominate TAS's Butt since i know everything about him.. he was Nothing but a Jerk to Anyone.. even me. i was offline from everybody else not knowing that i had Negative or Emotional Feelings, i've tried to cheer myself by Downloading a Game from Steam named "Team Fortress 2" or TF2 For Short after i watched a ton of memes and Animations from that game, i was new to this and all i had to do is to Shoot the Opponent Teams Depending Which Team i am on, i was a Complete Noob on TF2 after i tried the Tutorial Mode or smth, and many days has been foward. While Shitman Announced that he won't be Online Until August. i've also made an announcement that i was about to Create a Document Exposing TAS and Regarding his Behavior Towards Players and the Community but i wasn't sure if everyone agreed to my Document Making like if TAS was The Villain (and he was ig). i was still not feeling Happy on the inside while During this Endless Journey before KKT announced that He'll Ban TAS if he keeps being a bad sport which i'm not sure what year, Month, Decades, Weeks or Days TAS will be Banned from the Mod. i didn't had my hopes high. i was about to Leave from the Mod when i didn't feel motivated or when i had a mental Breakdown Which that Happened when some of My Friends told us to Stop Mocking or Tell TAS to Address the Allegations which that Leaded me to go on a rampage or Causing my Mental Health go in danger, i Separated from the Gang after i said like "i was never apart from this gang" or "This Friendship Ends for now". Which into this Day (and i mean Today). i've Retired from The MvLO Community, the OG Game itself and Mods hoping that i won't return, My Friends what i made along this trip were now feeling sad seeing me that i left and move on.. Which that Leads KKT Replying my Comment about Why we're Started being Depressive and i told everything to Him in July 16th of 2025. The Day i've Retired.. everyone were saying goodbye to me, that They will miss me. or hoping that someday i'll come back after i left.. which i'll still remember them.. except for one specific Player/User (which is TAS for the Last time). i want to move on and finish my Murder Drones AU, Still Wander Around the FNF Community and Talk with my friend that i've been together with.. i'm not Sure if i will Return when i feel Motivated Or Better but i hope i find some Space with Tzumi..
Thank you all for Being with me in this Journey.. i may be officially Left from the Mod but Someday i will Return when i feel Better or Motivated (which i'm not sure if that's not going to happen)
and to end this Speech.. i'm going to say One more Quote from TF2 and from Murder Drones
"You were good Son Real good..! Maybe Even the Best." -TF2 Soldier (R.I.P Rick May..)
"Bite me!" -Uzi Doorman
i'll Miss Y'all..
-MDxMariosMadnessDeluxe (me)