Nah that’s totally fine I get it. Not everybody has a local game store and playing a TTRPG with total strangers is a huge ask of somebody anyway. I myself, haven’t played TTRPGS in a few months for similar reasons, so I definitely feel your pain! Hope you eventually find a group to play this with though!
Edit: sorry for the late reply btw, I’ve been on vacation for the past two weeks and finally got a quick break to respond :/