I felt kind of bad towards this game when i finished it for the first time.
So i decided to take another shot at it and uhmm...
Yeah
Just...read this,
It's okay to have felt ashamed…but you can’t keep feeling like this. We all have guilty pleasures. Or stuff that seems not good in general spots.
But if it keeps hurting to simply look at it? Why not face it head on? See how that goes.
Don’t worry. It’s a good game.
And it’s totally normal to play it.
Especially when I am who I am.
And it’s okay to have gender envy, it just shows that you are who you are and you see beauty when you see it.
UPDATE 1: It was cute…the game was seriously fun…it didn't feel guilty to play anymore…it felt actually kind of…relatable…their characters…exploring their identity…even the some of the spicy scenes were meaningful and the final one was actually…kinda cute it almost made me tear up.
Q1: Did gender envy hit?
Yes. Yes it did. Seeing ROBIN (The Femboy Character) Slowly be loved and seen for who he is obviously dumps gender envy on me (And also…uhhmmm idk if the gender envy counts since me and robin are both assigned male and identify as boys…i guess it does hehe~)
Q2: Do you feel that the weight of the shame is gone?
I wouldn’t say it didn't or it did…it might’ve been gone in a really. A REALLY HUGE way…evaporated.
But to keep the answer short; Yes. Yes the weight feels gone.
Q3: What do you feel about this game AS A GAME?
Pretty fun!! Like it seriously made you feel like you could connect with yourself in a humorous way! Hehe, like show you your abilities of making jokes? Or voice acting, it is a visual novel after all.
Q4: What do you feel about this game AS ART?
As art this game feels genuinely touching to every person who explores identity. Like gay people or trans people or whatever. It really shows you the bloom and fruition of someone maybe like me who is usually picked on or whatever and just…see them when they are seen.
Q5: What do you feel about this game after having played it again?
I feel genuinely different about it! Last time i played–Which was a LONG time ago–i felt like the character ROBIN was…New, I was pretty new to embracing my girly side so yeah! But now it felt…normal, human, and it felt like I actually relate to ROBIN and MORE! Even perfectly mimicking his noise and making funny bits! (Sparrow! Stop feeding me more subway sandwiches for trust with the trust potion that you get from the trust market!!! XDDDDDD)
Q6: What else do you have to say?
I feel like I can put this game down now. Look at it without shame and know, “This game is good. It speaks volumes.”
IT actually has the same vibes of watching CALL ME BY YOUR NAME!!!
But…more in depth and spicy teehee~
As i said earlier though–Gender envy and what not…i think its normal to desire love and the freedom to be ^w^
I'm glad I finished.
Now i dont have to feel bad about it <3