You should not give up a word that should be beautiful just because of the meaningless nature of religion and the meaningless thoughts of its followers. 'Pure' is simply 'pure' and will not change due to sexual orientation. At the same time, I cherish a love and friendship because the environment I am in naturally oppresses different people. If you can understand me, that's why I regret this path. Their environment is so open and free that they won't lose everything just because of one trial and error - believe me, the cost of trial and error in most countries is not as high as in my place, and I may respect your efforts for equality - but I believe that letting go is a self imposed oppression on oneself.
And, I do not like the plot of this line, but as the ancient saying goes, when you reach the bottom, you will only move up, and I just stop immersing myself in this character who is partially similar to me, and then see how much they can change.