it's always really comforting to me to play and read things like this where the author so deeply understands the mental gymnastics of shame you feel around stuff like this that you've felt since you were a kid. it's a thing that feels so earnest and i feel so empathetically towards it makes me start psychically limbering up to do somersaults the moment i try to internalize the message. the truth is you can actually just say 'you know what, it's fine, whatever' and leave the gymnasium if you want.