Hey! Thanks for sharing.
I just want to say I don't think I've changed that much at all. I really don't think I'm that much of a different person than when I started this project - what I'm trying to say is that once you find the right thing for you, the person you were all along will show up.
Now for finding the right thing, that was the toughest part. It can be due to a whole number of reasons. The right thing can be there but you might not take that chance because of timing. Because of money. Heck, I couldn't start my game initially because I had moved back in with my parents for a time and didn't want to be drawing naked pngs in front of them, lol.
My one advice is to just do something. ANYTHING. And make sure to listen to yourself. Like seriously think about whether what you're doing is something you that satisfies you. One thing I can tell you is that I always knew 100% when I was doing something I didn't feel passionate about. I think that when you admit that to yourself, your brain will work overtime (even subconsciously) to find something you DO enjoy.
You might get lucky and it'll only take one try. Or it make take dozens (like me). And it might feel like it really sucks sometimes. But the one thing you can't do is give up.
I wish you the best of luck on your journey! You're welcome to comment here (and I'll try to respond when I can) or reach out to me in the Discord as well. Much love ❤️