As a fellow chronically ill, this really struck hard with me. Sometimes almost too hard. Especially this bit:
"you hate causing trouble for others. you don't like being fussed over.
you pride yourself on being a model patient. the nurses always comment on how quiet you are. how you never need anything. this comforts you slightly, to be unobtrusive."
I felt exACTLY the same way. I hope in some small way, making this helped you. It helps me to know that I'm not alone in these experiences. Much love, you deserve the best. <3