My condolences. I lost my best friend to suicide last year. I didn't know who to talk to or if anyone would listen. They acted sympathetic for a while, but after a few days, it felt like my friend had become a taboo topic. Life feels unreal even now, like it's all some scene in a movie, and any second, it'll all be over and I'll get to see her again. But, it just doesn't end. This just sucks, and it will do so until the day I die. I hope I'll find something worth sticking around for, and I wish the same for you, Naarel.