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Basically, I was going to make a kinetic visual novel about The Lion King, but people kept saying that I should make a more interactive porn game. So, I did that instead, and people aren't playing it, which is annoying.
It's frustrating because people will tell you what they think makes them look the best, not what they actually want. They'll say they hate McDonald's and want to eat at local mom and pop restaurants or cook for themselves at home, but they'll eat at McDonald's.
I guess if you want to be successful you have to accept that most people want cynically-produced cheap trash that treats them like idiots, but they'll tell you that they want high-quality stuff made with love that respects their intelligence.
"However I like to expose my ideas. Sometimes praised. Sometimes hated but there it is."
I feel like that statement implies that what you want is validation and acknowledgement in either a positive or negative direction. Anger is an energy, and positivity is encouraging. Most people think that when they release a project anywhere they'll either get hate or positive feedback, so they brace themselves to accept both.
What people don't think about is, well, nothing happening at all, not getting any comments at all on the project, and if they do think about that, they think "Well, how can nothing affect me mentally?"
I mean, that kinda hurts more than anything else. It's not that people 'hate' my stuff or like them, so "you can't expect that by developing a product everyone will like it, it is possible that some of them will leave, but that can also attract more people," isn't the reality. The 'hate' that I get is mostly just passive-aggressiveness that all developers have to deal with unless they're in positions of actual influence, which is similar to what you likely see at work, where everyone has an idea on how to do their jobs and are at least somewhat judgmental of how the people they work with do their jobs, but likely won't outright say it, like "Oh, that's how you write your code, huh? I do it differently because I think it's easier and better, but, you do what works for you, buddy," and not "Your code sucks, and you smell bad. Get the f*ck out of this building right now and shower."
I mean, you read my concerns and you haven't said anything about the actual project it's attached to. You don't even know if it's good or bad, and the advice you're giving is very generic "Believe in yourself, and live your best life," which is, honestly, completely useless. It's just empty platitudes that you're likely just saying to make yourself feel good if you're not going to back it up with something that actually applies to the project. Like, if you said something about how I could improve the presentation to make it more appealing to people, or gave me a name of someone that enjoys signal-boosting small-time p*rn games, that would be infinitely more meaningful, validating, and beneficial than a platitude. I'm not a 19-year-old publishing for the first time here, I've been publishing consistently here for 4 years and I'm feeling very burnt-out because it doesn't feel like it has resulted in any appreciation from the site, which Itch demonstrated by screwing me over for months and not even apologizing for doing so.
That's what bothers me, and the point of this post. It's all just pointless if I'm getting nothing meaningful from this site and the userbase except watching my follower count go up. No meaningful discussions, no possibility of turning this into a career, I get nothing from it, and it feels like when people say "Dude, don't worry about what people say, just do what you want to do," what they actually mean is "Hey, uh, you should do all the work to make yourself feel like what you're doing is meaningful, and also do the work to make yourself feel validated, because I don't want to, unless it benefits me in some way."
Two things:
1. You do realise that this devlog is for an actual project published on Itch, right? It isn't a random blog, it's me saying "I was working on writing a Lion King project, but people kept saying that I should make something like this, so instead I made this visual novel called The Week She Tried To Live," and no one is playing it. If anything, the fact that you didn't even notice that the visual novel I did publish is called The Week She Tried To Live, which is a horror game, but clicked on this for The Lion King is a sign that, yes, I should have just made that Lion King thing. Like, that's what those pictures attached to this are for. Did you really have absolutely no idea?
2. Awesome. You think my writing is crap. So much for "Do what you want to do and don't care what others think." I guess I was right that all you were saying before was just empty platitudes.
Like, what I said in this devlog was "People will say whatever they think makes them look best instead of what they actually think, which steers me in the wrong direction," and you basically proved my point. I should have just made the stupid Lion King visual novel for cynical reasons instead of doing what people said, which was this original indie horror project that people said would be the better thing to make but didn't play.
hey weird its a shame because I WOULD REAALY LIKE TO SE THE LION KING VERSION OF THAT STORY
you should not care for fucking algorithyms youtube teaches you that the algorithim most of the time is wrong
do just do what you want to do
and i really liked the vitani story hope some day you make it a game too