i'm a (probably) ace lesbian, and this was like a word for word description of my first date. funnily enough, i continued seeing him despite being very not into it the whole time and later stayed at his house. thankfully, he was a nice guy and could tell i wasn't comfortable, so even though i didn't say anything nothing happened. but even with just that much, it was still really really sickening to me.
at this moment i still don't know if i'm fully ace or if it would've been fine with a girl. i find it difficult to pursue romance. i empathise so much with that ambiguity, of not knowing for sure if the feeling is friendly or romantic. i also always assumed all my life that at some point, i would 'just know'. but i understand the boundaries i'll have to set if i take that step someday :'). i'll share this with my friends. thank you for sharing and best of luck to you <3