I don't know what to say. No one's laid it out to me that way honestly I don't know. I really do wanna be involved with it because it makes me happy. but I'm so tired of the pain and shit man. I just wanna be happy. I really appreciate you talking to me. You've done a lot more than a lot of other people. I've tried to talk with genuinely thank you. I don't know man my whole life I've had trouble making friends and feeling happy and then when I became a furry things got a little easier and then like I said all that shit happened and ever since then I haven't been able to have that feeling again. now it's gotten so bad to the point of where I honestly don't believe I can have a relationship or an actual friend. I don't know what to do. I want to go back to feeling happy and comfortable with that but now it's just a source of constant sadness and anger, and I don't want it to be. sorry I'm going on another rant. Honestly, these past couple weeks have been hard and my head's been all over the place. I'm sorry I even laid all this shit on you, man. I hope your life's going good and I hope you keep being the good person you are. seriously thank you for what you said. I've been anxious about this conversation and what you said I don't know, man I've got so much to work on. I've got so much fucked up with me. and I hate it bro. I'm scared cause I'm only 18 I'm terrified that shit's gonna get worse and all I'm trying to do is heal man. and all this thinking about my past and this shit on top of trying to find a job and make sure we have food and shit. It's just so much. And all I want is to relax and be happy I used to ERP and shit too man. god it made me so happy but then as the years went by, I started getting mad at myself for it.told myself It was bad even though deep down I knew that was helpful for me and it did exactly what you said it did (i even talked to my therapist and she said it was a good way to get those feelings out) and you're right. I'm just denying it because I am upset. I don't know man my whole life's a fucking mess but once again, I'm sorry to put all this on you. I know you're a complete stranger I'm sorry.i hope you have a good rest your day and thank you so much for replying to me once again. your words mean a lot to me, thank you.
oh, one last thing sorry about not seeing your messages. itch.io doesn't notify me. So if you reply to this, sorry if I don't see it for a while.