This was beautiful and intensely relatable , and made me feel a lot better for not realizing that I was Bisexual until I was 20 years old, and another 5 years after that before I started considering I might be nonbinary. So many of the hand-waves and explanations you portrayed were almost word for word excuses I would make to myself, albeit with the genders swapped. Still to this day I deal with doubts and wondering if I'm really bi or if I'm just imagining it or subconsciously faking it or don't deserve to be able to use the label for a number of reasons. But I am. I internalized all these things about what I'm supposed to be and what being bi is supposed to be, but the reality is I just am, and it feels good to say it