….i mean idk cuz iām in a psych class rn and iām studying the humanās behavior so…psychiatric material…?..
well I'm talking mostly abt things you're born with. Autism, adhd, yk things that affect your brain function that have no cure and cannot simply appear, you have to be born with it to have it.
Neurodivergence basically. Yk things that might have some hereditary influence but the exact cause is unknown and such.
Because my sister says I have low-empathy disorder (they don't use the words psychopath or sociopath anymore because it takes on a negative connotation) and maybe some sort of autism. My mom thinks I might have adhd and my other sister says I have ocd.
I know my other sister is wrong because I don't have the same obsessive thoughts related to OCD, but I wonder if my sister and my mom might have a point.
I kinda already know I'm neurodivergent I just don't know what exactly.
In my psych class I took a few different types of psychology. Mostly it was psychiatry, but we also studied animal behaviors every now and then and the different types of psychology.
We also studied the generational identity in which every generation believes themselves to be better than the next one because "that's how I was raised, and I turned out fine so that must be the correct way to be raised and these new ways of raising kids just ain't right." Then the next generation complains about the last generation treating them badly because of this only to do it again to the generation after them. For example, Gen Z complains that the past generations make fun of them and treat them badly, but they do the same thing to Gen Alpha. It's also, each generation thinks that they're going to be the change in the cycle, that they won't treat the next generation the same way they were treated, but they always always do. It's also, with the way the world is so rapidly changing nowadays, each generation can only relate to people in their own generation and find difficulty relating to other generations because ultimately they didn't grow up with the same struggles and the same lives. That's why there's such a big divide between each generation. Because we just can't relate to each other anymore. Not even because it's physically impossible to, but because of the generational identity that we built. It's a sort of "stay in your lane and we stay in ours" situation, like cliques. Generations don't mix because no one, no one changes the way they think. No one tries to understand. The cycle doesn't stop. Gen Alpha, they'll complain about Gen Z. They'll grow up and treat the next generation the same. It's always the same. I'm not being pessimistic, and I'm not being a "realist" I'm being genuinely serious. This is the way it is. And the chances of the cycle ever stopping, of a generation ever pausing and going "wait... what are we doing?" Are so low. It repeats and repeats and repeats. The cycle always repeats. But no one ever stops to recognize it.
We also took like the basics. Yk, classical conditioning, mental disorders, blah blah blah.
honestly my only intention to learn psychology is to learn about myself and why certain people act the way they do towards me-itās like another preparation to how to deal with people i guess? i wanna take it next year as well, but i donāt know š. and generational psych is VERY cool to learn, seeing how every age/generation changes. i also wanna learn how music affects psych-like, for example, the influence/social type of psych?
idk itās just something to learn
like i know music changes your mood, it can
but how??? like all these things intrigue me, especially since i love music
music itself is so good if you UNDERSTAND music. you can enjoy any type of music if you get the concept of music
music isnāt just words, itās poetry and meaning
every song has a meaning
wether it be about a game, a relationship, a death, religion
it all has a meaning
thatās what i love about music! finding out what the significance of the song is. i like take time to break down lyrics, and sometimes what influenced the song
i sound probably super annoying right now but i could talk about music for HOURS, ESPECIALLY the life behind taylorās songs oh my god
a lot of people say her music sounds the same, and i wouldnāt say that all her songs sound the same, but a couple do! sheās a pop artist…pop music usually SOUNDS the same,
but when we dive deep into her synth music and indie, itās like youāre opening a whole new world
i spent the other day for an HOUR explaining to one of my friends what ONE song meant, because of how much meaning it had. if it really wasnāt for her music and her lyrics, i wouldāve never won an essay scholarship
sheās influenced a lot of my writing. poetry, essays, my vocabulary-i didnāt know what the word surmise meant, nor EXISTED till i heard it, and now i use it in my daily vocabulary
so in all honesty and not because iām a big fan, but she truly is a good artist and deserves all the fame she has
sorry again for yapping š
me when I write an entire fucking thing only for my phone to lose charge and now I have to write it all over again.
Anyway I was saying that pop music sounds very similar nowadays, not because it can't be different, but because no one tries to be different. If you listen to older pop music I feel like people experimented more then. It has more variety.
I too enjoy understanding the meaning behind songs and such but I feel more attracted to songs like So Beautiful by DPR IAN or Climbing Up the Walls by Radiohead.
So Beautiful is a love song, but I feel like it's really beautiful in the sense that it's not overly positive or overly negative, it's more complex. It feels more natural in a way. The music is also very airy and it matches the vibe of the song really well. I feel like the music is so special because it doesn't feel like it's a background to the lyrics or so, it is the lyrics. It just feels like the song has a soul, you know what I mean?
Climbing Up the Walls is honestly the only song about anxiety/paranoia that I actually GET. It's written from the perspective of your fear and paranoia I could go through each individual lyric for you right now just to tell you how good it is. I feel like every song that mentions anxiety is about being overwhelmed, but Climbing Up the Walls isn't like that. Climbing Up the Walls is about the genuine raw fear. The kind of fear that makes you push people away, that makes you take a knife on a tour around your house "just in case", that makes you look behind you when you walk down the street at night. It's about a feeling if real genuine terror. Isolating, debilitating terror. The music as well is so interesting because like I genuinely don't think I've ever heard a song that sounded like Climbing Up the Walls. The music is so unique and it tries to do something with itself and such. And the scream at the end is just so... AHHHHH it is so good. I love it. Genuinely.
I just feel like, and this is MY OPINION, Taylor's songs lack that. That genuine raw humanity of these songs. She might be singing about something that's real, but the emotion behind it feels superficial. That's just how I feel is all.
OH MY GOD BRO I WOULD BE SO PIISSSEEEDDD š
Honestly I canāt really say anything about your opinion, and Iām not trying to argue, but just try to show you that her songs do have raw feeling and emotions. She just doesnāt write about her experiences with her exes, but she puts us as the listener in her shoes the way she describes it. I have never been emotional to a song before, and the only 4 songs I ever felt this way to was āthis is me tryingā, āall too wellā, and āpeter/the albatrossā. Individually these songs tell a story that feels literally SO sacred.
take this is me trying for example-the feeling that youāre falling apart. youāre not the same as you used to be. EVERY time i listen to timt (this is me trying), the lyrics and the way she phrases words are SUCH main details. speaking about how you canāt always be the best version of yourself-this song is like a sister of a song named āmirrorballā, which is almost the same concept except timt is more or less of: āiām dying, but iām tryingā and mirrorball is: āiām showing you my best version to make you happyā. itās honestly hard for me to relate to a song like that because me being me, i hate denying iām not the most perfect person, and that song just like, wooow. expands my mind
all too well, (10 minute version) is honestly SUCH a beautiful song. it talks about a 3 month relationship that felt sacred, private, and honestly just so holy…and the only reason for this is because the person who this was written for (jake gyllehnahal or however u spell it), had took her sacredness. but it was just out of WANTING to take it, not because he loved her. even though i canāt relate to this one in that way, i relate it by losing a person who i thought really loved me, and the way itās constructed is just so-ugh. she literally uses a SCARF as a metaphor of her innocence-and he does still have that scarf, ābut you keep my old scarf from that very first week, cuz it reminds you of innocenceās and it smells like meā…lemme tell u smth, my mom doesnāt cry over songs. but when she listened to the full song she came out crying š-and taylor was only TWENTY ONE when she wrote this song, and it has SUCH beautiful writing and emotion
and lastly, peter and the albatross. iām doing these combined cuz theyāre both off the same album, but also cuz i canāt really like…not, speak about one or the other. peter speaks about a boy (specifically matt healey from the 1975 band?) who can never grow up, and taylor, as wendy from peter pan, was madly in love with. peter always promised wendy to come back…but he never really did-āwords from the mouths of babes, promises oceans deep, but never to keepā. this line hits SO hard. weāve literally all heard somebody tell us something, but they only said it because they knew thatās what we wanted to hear. never to keep their promise. and the bridge in this song as well is so beautiful. every time i listen to it i sorta space out because you just feel so connected, so like, idk how to say it š. after the first time i listened to it, it was very engraved in my mind. last year at my award ceremony when i did my speech (i was class pres), i used a lyric from this song because of how much it meant to me: āloves never lost when perspective is earnedā, because that is a phrase iāve lived with for a while…iād honestly really recommend youād listen to this song, because itās so heart felt and so like…IDKKK IDK HOW TO SAY IT BRO
but now with the albatross, ANOTHER great song , actually one of my FAVORITES. a lot of tays exes say that they their reputation was ruined due to the fact that they DATED her, (she writes songs, duh!), which debuts the main focus of this song. āsheās the death you chose, youāre in terrible dangerā…if you want to date her, hope to god you treat her well or ELSE youāll be thrown under the bus like all the other dudes. but this song is more or else dedicated to joe alwyn (partner of 6 years), and iāll tell you why i think itās about joe
according to google, āIn one of the most incredible aspects of albatrosses' lives, the fully fledged young birds will spend up to six years at sea before returning to land to find a partner.ā taylor spent her youth years with joe-she thought joe was going to be taylorās love of her life, but ended up being the loss of her life. another reason why i say this is because joe always wanted a private relationship, and she says this in her documentary āmiss americanaā-like she has a good 5 minutes about joe on there and how her love life with him reflected off of that years album, āreputationā, of how he was there for her lowest…now, we know that he couldnāt be there for her highest. throughout the album ttpd, taylor states that she wanted to be married, and that she wasted her time with joe in the song āso long, londonā. all of her songs on this album all sorta correlate, but the meaning of this song also engraved in me. when you tie yourself in a relationship with somebody you knew was trouble, itās hard NOT to be mentioned, and that looks can be DECEIVING. the way she describes herself as this cruel, selfish person is literally such beautiful reiterated that you totally forget that sheās describing herself as this person whoās cruel. whoās DANGEROUS. but after all, they decided to play the game with her-whoās at fault? but all 4 of these songs are the definition of heart-felt. THESE are the songs that should be shown out more. well written, beautiful, songs. thereās also so many i wish i could get to but youād probably stop responding š¤£-but to top it off, her top 5 albums that have actually like the best heart-felt songs are
1. evermore
2. ttpd
3. folklore
4. ttpd (the anthology$
5. midnights
like all of these have SUCH good songs…of course, i can get kinda sick of the songs that are overplayed, (i can do it with a broken heart, fortnight, ANTI-HERO š, CARDIGAN…) but thereās a reason why theyāre overplayed. cuz theyāre so good…like lowkey when anti-hero hits, the lyrics DO hit…but i am about to listen to the songs you just said cuz i really wanna hear what you feel!!!
i lied. thatās NOT the only 4 songs.
FOREVER
FUCKING
WINTER.
forever winter (taylorās version) is i think the most beautiful song out there-i donāt know if the topic would trigger you so you donāt need to read it if you donāt wanna but ima just put this (tw: suicide mention)
taylor was friends with this one dude (i forgot his name), and she used to always play her songs for him first. the song forever winter is dedicated to him, stating that she shouldāve seen the signs before he committed and that she feels guilty. he was such a sweet soul-and taylor wanted to be his forever summer, to be his warmth to his coldness. so now, whenever he would be mentioned, it would be forever winter. the bridge in this song is so beaming with emotion as well, and this songs means the WORLD to me due to the fact that i have lost somebody due to suicide, and i think this is one of the few taylor songs i cried too
but forever winter is also one of the more emotional taylor songs!!!
It sounds like I'm trying to argue uh I'm not I'm just like really saying my own POV on the matter.
I'm not saying ALL of Taylor's songs lack what I feel is genuine raw emotion, I can acknowledge that yes she has written songs about real experiences with real emotion it's just I feel like a majority of her songs aren't made like that. And songs that lack that aren't necessarily bad, heck some of my favorite songs are like that. And Taylor is a good artist, I'm not an idiot, I have ears, I know her songs are good. I just gravitate more toward other songs.
I especially am not a really big fan of pop music cause for me personally, I like it when songs are more unique and try to do something interesting with their music. Not just the lyrics, the music as well. I like when music is art. Not just a bunch of chords that sound good. You're meant to experiment and think outside the box.
It's actually why Gorillaz is one of my favorite bands. Not a lot of their songs necessarily have genuine raw emotion behind them but the music is made from a place of creativity. Of wanting to make something special musically. Experimenting, venturing around outside the box. And even when they don't have that genuine emotion, they're still talking about something.
Superfast Jellyfish is about how shallow the music industry is, prioritizing quantity over quality, making shallow and basic music, by comparing it to fast food and microwaved meals you buy at stores.
Kids With Guns is about how the younger generation is being exposed to more and more negative stuff as time goes on to the point where they relate more to chaos and negativity than anything else and they will eventually go spread that chaos when they grow up.
Dirty Harry is literally about sending kids/teens off to war.
Gorillaz itself started off as a criticism to today's music industry. The entire point of the band was to critique how easy it was to make it in the music industry now. Basically saying that you can even do it with a completely fake band. Literally Gorrilaz is just two guys. An artist and a singer. The rest of the band is composed of different people every time because the band itself is not real.
Not arguing. Just my thoughts.
I guess like... to each his own yk. Music is subjective anyway.
guys i so find emotion in shake it off…like i violently sobbed to shake it off, every time i hear it š
and i think we both arent trying to argue just state opinions š¢
but gorillazs is a good band!!! i listen to them every once in a while, i just, yk, mainly listen to taylor. but i like exploring other artist…i think when you truly do understand music, you can enjoy any genre of music. rap, pop, indie, country, synth, like ANY genre
ikr. It's such an emotional song I just...can't help but tear up a little š
But I was saying a majority lmao. Like the emotions are just a little surface level is all idk maybe I'm just acoustic. (I'm allowed to say that maybe probably)
Yeah I honestly listen to anything. I don't hate pop music with a burning passion or anything, lmao.