Didn't get much done this month. The election really fucked me up.
All year I've been struggling with anxiety and depression leading up to the election, now post election I'm just depressed.
I got myself back on anti-depressants, started getting involved with local politics (Joined my local Democratic Socialists branch and been participating in meetings) getting a lot more involved on Tiktok making political videos to attempt to spread education and combat misinformation.
In fact I've been doing a lot more political writing than writing fiction. Material for videos or writing down my philosophy for others to read since I'm now fully convinced this country has lost all sense of morality.
Just doing whatever I can to make me feel like I'm making a difference. Yet I'm still overwhelmed with worry about the future. About the legislation that may be be passed, about how embolden racists and fascists feel now and how that's going to affect the safety of my daughter, fears of war, subjugation, and the fact that making games or stories is going to be financially viable due to the economic devastation that Donald Dumps policies will affect people's finances-
And now on top of all of that, it's now December. The holidays always have me depressed. We're financially strained and yet I still feel pressured to provide a 'magical' Christmas, happy cheery music is constantly blaring about how I should be happy and thankful while I feel dead inside- I just feel so overwhelmed.
I feel like aside from getting the Metroid RPG done, and the demo of my next book done, I got nothing else productive done. No new comics, only 1 video that I'm not entirely happy with, 12 months and not nearly enough to show for it. Couldn't even get my one-off short done...
Maybe I'm just going to take December off. I feel a coming storm brewing, so maybe I should take this final month to rest before the great work begins for the next 4 years of trying to keep some semblance of democracy alive.
I'm still going to make videos, still write, maybe work on a game or comic when I feel particularly motivated, but maybe my wife is right. Maybe I need to rest and come into the new year with a fresh mindset.
I will be launching the demo for the gamebook in January, and announce what my other project is in February, then... I'm not sure.
~Eli
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It sounds like you need to get out of the democratic echo chamber and work on yourself. Aside from a fair bit of misinformation, some stuff is just plain wrong. Calling someone out for lazy writing isn't racist. Saying that gay people aren't pedophiles isn't homophobic. Saying black people are humans isn't racist. Yes, I've been called racist for saying that black people are real and humans. Judging people by the color of their skin is inherently racist and I see the Left do it all the time. Even Harris herself said that all black people are drug dealers. Just as Biden said there's no difference between white people and poor people, or that he doesn't want his kids going to a school that also serves black children. Or how Obama, Harris, and Biden said that if you don't vote for democrats then you're not black. That's not even getting into the corruption and censorship that multiple massive tech companies admitted to. I won't say republicans don't have their fair share of incorrectness, I just saw a bill proposing to legalize marijuana for recreational use, and republicans were saying "If you vote yes, then day 1, there will be so many people smoking pot that it will block out the sun. You won't be able to see 2 feet in front of yourself. Babies will choke and die on how much weed smoke there will be." and "If people are allowed to carry 10oz of weed, the drug dealers (still illegal) will bring 20lb bricks (still illegal) to school parking lots (probably still illegal?) and hand it out for free (why?) to kids (still illegal)" As you can guess, I recognize that the republicans grossly misled the effects and changes that the bill allowed. Ok, that also doesn't cover how weird it is that the left is so violent and cheers for death. Like republicans are worried about the issues happening in blue states like New York, and democrats laugh and cheer when tragedy befalls a red state like North Carolina.