Posted May 10, 2024 by Kideshi
Hello everyone!! I'm not sure how many people are going to see this or really care to read it all, but I just want to thank all of you, from the bottom of my heart, for your appreciation and care for my visual novel Season May. I will never forget all the love, compliments and fan gifts (looking at you Bon) that you've given me.
After I released day 4, I was just... really torn. I think I've said in my updates before that nothing is ever good enough for me. But not only that... one of the reasons I even make art is to substitute the things I don't have in my life. Of course, the main thing I've been lacking my whole life is love and romance, which is why I used to read gay furry visual novels in the first place. Those visual novels like Nekojishi, Amorous, Tennis Ace and Adastra were so impactful to me... I'd never felt so in love and it's truly the only time in my life that I felt I had someone to love. I haven't been able to read visual novels ever since... for years I haven't read a single one. But I feel more comfortable making them...
But anyway, I was plotting out the rest of Season May and getting somewhere, but... I just wasn't satisfied with the art. I just... couldn't keep going with it. So then I thought to change the art style completely and rework the whole visual novel... but even then...
The main problem I had was that there was no true romance. Because I wanted Neo to be open to all characters and them all have a route, the entire story itself is deprived of romance and love - the one reason I even think of creating gay furry stories. So not only did I just hate the art... I couldn't keep writing it knowing that Neo could never fall in love with anyone. And I couldn't just choose one of my characters as I loved them so much, so... I was just at a loss.
For months I've been going back and forth and back and forth between stories and characters - I've written more stories and composed more music than I ever have in the time I've been away from Season May. I even tried recreating Season May and re-plotting it, trying to add some sort of true romance to the plot - but it just never worked, no matter how hard I tried. I saw all of your comments and I was just so ashamed of leaving the project and abandoning my characters and fans... I just couldn't handle it, so I wanted to come up with something else as quickly as possible. I'm sorry it's taken so long... but like I said, my standards are just so high that I'll never settle for mediocre. I'll never settle for anything less than perfect (to me), because why would I?
Of course, my mental health has been absolutely bat shit crazy - I honestly can't believe I'm still here. But just like Reuben, I sat with my darkness and... somehow, miraculously kept moving forward. And here I am - with a new project finally in the works. Something that I'm confident with - and something that I am going to put all of my effort into - for myself, and for all the love you gave Season May.
If any of you guys have any questions or.... anything that you'd like to ask about Season May, please do. I will be referencing Season May, and all of my characters and stories will not be lost forever - but I'm going to be making something brand new... something that truly sums me up as a furry. Please stay tuned!!!
Again, thank you to everyone who read Season May. I will try very hard to get this new project out as soon as I can - and I promise it'll be even better.
In the meantime, here's a teaser.