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The end.

Pheonix's Tear
A downloadable moment for Windows, macOS, Linux, and Android

Hello everyone.

I hope you're doing well. It's been a while, hasn't it?

A lot has happened since my last post, and I won’t waste your time trying to justify the silence. I think what matters now is simply admitting something I’ve been trying to avoid for far too long: I can’t keep going.

Every time I open my project, every time I look at the game’s terminal, my hands start to shake. My head hurts. My chest tightens with the weight of guilt. Guilt for not being able to continue. Guilt for disappointing those who believed in me. I think I’ve broken my own record for how many people I can let down at once — lol, I guess.

After a long period of denial, countless attempts to push forward, and an unhealthy amount of self-blame, I had to face the truth: I just can’t continue with this project as things are now.

There are many reasons behind it — my personal issues, my growing frustration with how inefficient I am when it comes to programming, the AI-generated backgrounds that started to make me feel sick just looking at them. I even tried looking for alternatives, like switching to TyranoBuilder instead of Ren’Py, hoping that a simpler tool would help me move forward. But even then, I couldn’t escape the core problem: my own incompetence, my lack of structure, my inability to bring it all together the way I had imagined.

I still loved writing — that was the one thing that brought me joy. But I wrote one chapter at a time, slowly, without a clear roadmap. Maybe I could fix some of this. Maybe I could find a programmer, maybe I could commission more art. But honestly? I don't have the confidence anymore. I’ve lost faith in my ability to hold it all together.

The support I received on Patreon was overwhelming in the best way. I was able to commission a few CGs, and people were incredibly kind and patient with me. But when I found myself unable to make progress, I canceled the billing — I couldn’t accept money when I felt I had nothing to offer in return.

So yes, this project — and any others I had planned in this medium — are on complete pause.
But maybe, just maybe… it’s not the end.

I’ve started working on a book project. It might not be as visually appealing or interactive as a visual novel, but it's something I can do right now. Something I can hold on to. And I’m genuinely excited about it. It gives me a reason to write again, a way to express something real without the pressure that crushed me before.

From the bottom of my heart, I’m sorry. I wish I could have done more. I wish I could have finished what I started. But above all, I thank you — for your support, for your kindness, for believing in me when I barely could believe in myself.

There’s not much I can offer now except a deep bow and a quiet, desperate plea for forgiveness.
Thank you for walking with me, even for a short while.

— Yellow Chocobo

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