This game reminded me of my life, I'll be honest. Life really can be horrible at times, and you want to be happy for people even if you aren't. Feeling so useless at times and really hurting. This helped me a lot to clear my mind of suicidal thoughts; I don't know how, but it really helped. Thank you for making this game; it was interesting and I loved the plot behind it!
Hi henlo! First of all, thanks for taking your time to play the game.
And yes. She's dead. That's it. That's because this is what the reality of suicide and death in general is like. Someone's gone and now you're left to deal with it. If you don't feel anything about it, that's still a valid reaction. Ultimately, this world is built for the living, and you need to carry on – as the narrator herself says.
Finally felt in a good enough space to play this. Now I'm having a hard time even knowing what to write here. I'm not very good at putting my own thoughts into words. Or describing how I feel. I can describe how characters feel and what they go through but never myself. Maybe it comes from a disconnect with not ever wanting to see myself in a story because I don't like myself enough 🤣...... /hj
I'm feeling very strange now after playing this and feeling so many of my own thoughts reflected on the screen. And I just want to thank you for making this and putting it out there. Something so raw like this takes a lot of courage to share.
So thank you. Thank you for sharing your words. Your thoughts. A place you've once been. Thank you for finishing [this] game.
Hi! I'm currently working on a thesis capstone about video games that tackle big issues, and found your game to be extremely powerful and brave. I'd love to do a short email interview with you! Feel free to reach out if that sounds like something you'd be interested in :)
This really made me melancholic which, tbh , I kinda already guessed I was gonna feel even before I downloaded the game. In a lot of ways, this reminded me of the suicide note I had written a few years ago. I had talked about regrets, my family, my friends. I talked about dreams I had dedicated my life to and how that passion wasn't enough to make me want to stay alive. I talked about feeling tired and wishing I could close my eyes and never open them again. There were a lot of things I said which the game reminded me of and it kinda makes me smile cause, "Oh, I guess I wasn't the only one thinking that." The narrator talking about how much effort it is to try to die and I wanted to laugh cause true! I remember when I reached out to a professional, I talked about how even if I wanted to die, it was so fucking bothersome to figure out how to do it. I talked about various methods and why those weren't feasible or realistic or how I couldn't do any of those without being questioned. I had told them that in a joking manner, but I did seriously think about which way was the easiest to go. Besides myself, it did also make me think of my friends, a few of which have attempted. They were unsuccessful, thankfully but sometimes when things are too quiet I go check on them. Tbh, I think the idea of suicide never leaves you, even if you've gotten better. The thought isn't that prominent but sometimes they sit at the back of your head, whispering, tugging at the sleeves of your clothes, and telling you to look at them. I'm better now. God, so much better. But yeah, it's still there. Idk what else to say really, it's very straightforward. Not much theatrics. Like yeah, I'd believe this was someone's last words. For the sake of saying something objective, the medium was really helpful in creating the overall mood. No GUIs, no choices, nothing pretty cause yeah the game is not getting finished but there are beats. Pauses. So yeah, that helps in creating the visual image of a rambling narrator. If this was executed in a different medium it wouldn't be as effective. anyways, nice game. made me think a lot and reflect. i'm glad to still be here.
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This game reminded me of my life, I'll be honest. Life really can be horrible at times, and you want to be happy for people even if you aren't. Feeling so useless at times and really hurting. This helped me a lot to clear my mind of suicidal thoughts; I don't know how, but it really helped. Thank you for making this game; it was interesting and I loved the plot behind it!
idk, it feel like the character dead so we can move on :/
Hi henlo! First of all, thanks for taking your time to play the game.
And yes. She's dead. That's it. That's because this is what the reality of suicide and death in general is like. Someone's gone and now you're left to deal with it. If you don't feel anything about it, that's still a valid reaction. Ultimately, this world is built for the living, and you need to carry on – as the narrator herself says.
Finally felt in a good enough space to play this. Now I'm having a hard time even knowing what to write here. I'm not very good at putting my own thoughts into words. Or describing how I feel. I can describe how characters feel and what they go through but never myself. Maybe it comes from a disconnect with not ever wanting to see myself in a story because I don't like myself enough 🤣...... /hj
I'm feeling very strange now after playing this and feeling so many of my own thoughts reflected on the screen. And I just want to thank you for making this and putting it out there. Something so raw like this takes a lot of courage to share.
So thank you. Thank you for sharing your words. Your thoughts. A place you've once been. Thank you for finishing [this] game.
I don't know why but despite being suicidal, I didn't feel anything. This is written well though. Deep.
Hi! I'm currently working on a thesis capstone about video games that tackle big issues, and found your game to be extremely powerful and brave. I'd love to do a short email interview with you! Feel free to reach out if that sounds like something you'd be interested in :)
Hi henlo! Is there any way to reach you? I don't really know how I'd do it on itch unfortunately and I'd rather not have my e-mail hanging there
yeah! My email is alexvass2020@gmail.com
Send me an email and I’ll send you some questions!
also, I’m more than down to use a different platform of communication as well, whatever works best for you!
im so sorry :(
// heads up, very lax talk abt suicide
This really made me melancholic which, tbh , I kinda already guessed I was gonna feel even before I downloaded the game. In a lot of ways, this reminded me of the suicide note I had written a few years ago. I had talked about regrets, my family, my friends. I talked about dreams I had dedicated my life to and how that passion wasn't enough to make me want to stay alive. I talked about feeling tired and wishing I could close my eyes and never open them again. There were a lot of things I said which the game reminded me of and it kinda makes me smile cause, "Oh, I guess I wasn't the only one thinking that."
The narrator talking about how much effort it is to try to die and I wanted to laugh cause true! I remember when I reached out to a professional, I talked about how even if I wanted to die, it was so fucking bothersome to figure out how to do it. I talked about various methods and why those weren't feasible or realistic or how I couldn't do any of those without being questioned. I had told them that in a joking manner, but I did seriously think about which way was the easiest to go.
Besides myself, it did also make me think of my friends, a few of which have attempted. They were unsuccessful, thankfully but sometimes when things are too quiet I go check on them. Tbh, I think the idea of suicide never leaves you, even if you've gotten better. The thought isn't that prominent but sometimes they sit at the back of your head, whispering, tugging at the sleeves of your clothes, and telling you to look at them. I'm better now. God, so much better. But yeah, it's still there.
Idk what else to say really, it's very straightforward. Not much theatrics. Like yeah, I'd believe this was someone's last words. For the sake of saying something objective, the medium was really helpful in creating the overall mood. No GUIs, no choices, nothing pretty cause yeah the game is not getting finished but there are beats. Pauses. So yeah, that helps in creating the visual image of a rambling narrator. If this was executed in a different medium it wouldn't be as effective.
anyways, nice game. made me think a lot and reflect. i'm glad to still be here.