I found myself with my mouth open for a lot of this. There's a lot that felt so so relatable, so painful. The art and music were wonderful as well. I'm really glad I read this, I think it's my favorite vncup entry. Looking forward to any future projects by Chambersoft.
I can’t leave a review on mobile, or at least don’t know how, but rest assured I will leave a 5 star later today. Regardless despite not being Transfem exactly, this really hit close to home. The struggle that Pan/Nikki felt about how to be herself, the difficulty of feeling at home in what is supposed to be “your body.” I absolutely loved this. I also really enjoyed the character of Amy. I love her depth in being both a helpful figure and a terrible one.
This was wonderful. These two poor girls were just trying their best to be happy with each other. It's so sad that Nikki was convinced that she would never be happy in her body, so much so that she would have Amy do that to her. Everything falling apart was inevitable amplified by the fact that both of them just wanted the best for the other, despite the fact that doing so just made the other worse. They accidentally tore each other apart. I'm definitely tearing up over the whole thing. Amazing work, thank you so much for sharing this with us.
I want to eat. I do. I don't see the maturity others see in me, i don't understand myselves more than surface level, we know scant little moderation. and we're hungry for something. The way she can never learn what she wanted before, what she agreed to... that's gorgeously written. thank you. sorry for leaving this comment while tired and vaguely dissociative. both are not at all the fault of the game, simply states we exist in at this moment in time.
oh, where do i start? incredibly and honestly written. terribly relatable, in the most complimentary way possible. i've had admittedly too many relationships where i was in positions similar to pan's- sometimes caretaker, sometimes sex toy, sometimes both. the way pan's feelings progress, blind devotion to subtle discomfort to resentment and weariness, is just. god. having your identity shaped by someone else and coming to realize that you miss who you used to be and remembering her and loving her but never fully being able to get back to her. feeling tethered to someone, physically and emotionally, while at the same time feeling so distant. the way that we project our insecurities and hurt each other in the process- "you'll finally be a real girl!" being taken away from the rest of the world, having kindness and affection doled out just frequently enough to keep you from leaving. fuck. this game ripped my fucking heart out and ate it. thank you so much for making it.
Loved this. Deeply painful dysphoria and isolation/dependence and denial all the more painful for being wrapped inexorably in / part of the super cute robo dolly loyal maid scenario. Really really appreciated the portrayal / framing of the dysphoria of existing in a body that isn't your own, and how pervasive that disconnect is.
Devastating and beautiful. A horrifying look into letting somebody else define you, this story uses it's relationship story to explore intimacy and gender while keeping a sharp focus on the feelings involved.
Nothing I could really say that any of the other reviews hadn't. Helped me come to terms with my own lingering trauma as an abuse survivor, all wrapped up in a dark nuanced look at two fantasies I think many of us have. Truly a masterpiece. You will cry.
It's hard to gather my thoughts into words, even after a few days, without a million of them spilling out of me, a big mess, but I want to try:
I am a survivor of intimate partner abuse, victim to another woman, another trans person. My story is ugly, weird, complicated; everyone averts their eyes. But Absolutely Perfect Specimen doesn't look away. I cried and cried after reading it, feeling seen. That unique dynamic. Finally feeling understood, legs tangled, pretty kisses, her jagged edges cutting into you deep, hearts so full of love and pain and need you can't see it, can't face it. The little things, sweet and cruel, teaspoons of sugar masking the bitter that makes you sicker every day. The soul-splintering anguish of leaving, the weight of these memories, these scars. Doing anything to be free. APS sees me, and it sees me with kindness, with empathy, but not the pity that makes my stomach burn. With honesty, not the avoidance that makes me sick with shame -- eyes open, all of what I've been through that no one wants to see. And I didn't realize how bad I needed that.
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I found myself with my mouth open for a lot of this. There's a lot that felt so so relatable, so painful. The art and music were wonderful as well. I'm really glad I read this, I think it's my favorite vncup entry. Looking forward to any future projects by Chambersoft.
I can’t leave a review on mobile, or at least don’t know how, but rest assured I will leave a 5 star later today. Regardless despite not being Transfem exactly, this really hit close to home. The struggle that Pan/Nikki felt about how to be herself, the difficulty of feeling at home in what is supposed to be “your body.” I absolutely loved this. I also really enjoyed the character of Amy. I love her depth in being both a helpful figure and a terrible one.
This was wonderful. These two poor girls were just trying their best to be happy with each other. It's so sad that Nikki was convinced that she would never be happy in her body, so much so that she would have Amy do that to her. Everything falling apart was inevitable amplified by the fact that both of them just wanted the best for the other, despite the fact that doing so just made the other worse. They accidentally tore each other apart. I'm definitely tearing up over the whole thing. Amazing work, thank you so much for sharing this with us.
I want to eat. I do. I don't see the maturity others see in me, i don't understand myselves more than surface level, we know scant little moderation. and we're hungry for something. The way she can never learn what she wanted before, what she agreed to... that's gorgeously written. thank you. sorry for leaving this comment while tired and vaguely dissociative. both are not at all the fault of the game, simply states we exist in at this moment in time.
This hit like a truck, excellent work
oh, where do i start? incredibly and honestly written. terribly relatable, in the most complimentary way possible. i've had admittedly too many relationships where i was in positions similar to pan's- sometimes caretaker, sometimes sex toy, sometimes both. the way pan's feelings progress, blind devotion to subtle discomfort to resentment and weariness, is just. god. having your identity shaped by someone else and coming to realize that you miss who you used to be and remembering her and loving her but never fully being able to get back to her. feeling tethered to someone, physically and emotionally, while at the same time feeling so distant. the way that we project our insecurities and hurt each other in the process- "you'll finally be a real girl!" being taken away from the rest of the world, having kindness and affection doled out just frequently enough to keep you from leaving. fuck. this game ripped my fucking heart out and ate it. thank you so much for making it.
The modern day Frankenstein I've been waiting to see. Incredible work. Thank you.
Loved this. Deeply painful dysphoria and isolation/dependence and denial all the more painful for being wrapped inexorably in / part of the super cute robo dolly loyal maid scenario. Really really appreciated the portrayal / framing of the dysphoria of existing in a body that isn't your own, and how pervasive that disconnect is.
Devastating and beautiful. A horrifying look into letting somebody else define you, this story uses it's relationship story to explore intimacy and gender while keeping a sharp focus on the feelings involved.
Nothing I could really say that any of the other reviews hadn't. Helped me come to terms with my own lingering trauma as an abuse survivor, all wrapped up in a dark nuanced look at two fantasies I think many of us have. Truly a masterpiece. You will cry.
It's hard to gather my thoughts into words, even after a few days, without a million of them spilling out of me, a big mess, but I want to try:
I am a survivor of intimate partner abuse, victim to another woman, another trans person. My story is ugly, weird, complicated; everyone averts their eyes. But Absolutely Perfect Specimen doesn't look away. I cried and cried after reading it, feeling seen. That unique dynamic. Finally feeling understood, legs tangled, pretty kisses, her jagged edges cutting into you deep, hearts so full of love and pain and need you can't see it, can't face it. The little things, sweet and cruel, teaspoons of sugar masking the bitter that makes you sicker every day. The soul-splintering anguish of leaving, the weight of these memories, these scars. Doing anything to be free. APS sees me, and it sees me with kindness, with empathy, but not the pity that makes my stomach burn. With honesty, not the avoidance that makes me sick with shame -- eyes open, all of what I've been through that no one wants to see. And I didn't realize how bad I needed that.