Dude, thanks for the kind words. Let me reassure you, I am hard on myself because it usually works, as you suggest at the end of your comment, and for the rest I eventually find balance and make peace with the game after release. I'm currently in that process, where \SPEK.TAKL\ doesn't look so bad to me now.
But I really dig your introspective slant, either in those comments or in your videos. I wish for you to get even more subscribers, and live off of your craft.
And may great-tasting coffee find its way to you!