It depends if you actually change or not. But even then, after all you've done its likely I won't be your friend even if you DO change. A friendly acquaintance, maybe... But a friend... unlikely.
But I need you to have it so they know I'm gonna rejoin but I won't talk, like make a role so I can't talk in general but I can talk in streaming in case of my mic breaking, like my already shattered heart.