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I EXPLAINED IT fine I'll just explain again BUT BETTER THIS TIME

so I watched Jadien Animations' video about her being Aro/Ace and while watching I was like "weird, somehow this is slightly relatable to me even tho I'm not aro/ace" and then it just clicked. I noticed a pattern. Every time I "liked" someone it wasn't because I actually genuinely liked that person, you see the aforementioned "liking" of people only ever started after people started saying stuff like "oh you two look cute together" etc. at which point my brain was like "ok everyone is saying you look good together so the obvious thing to do here is to like that person" and then I'd be like "but... I don' want to, they're my friend." and then my brain would go "JUST FCKN DO IT" and it became a pattern. Or even if people didn't say anything but me and this person knew each other my brain would be like "the movies say that this is how it happens so the law says you now like this person" and again I don't really want to but it's like what else am I gonna do I didn't know anything I was a child. And it just keeps happening, and even in like boy bands or movies or stuff people would be like "omg this person is so cute" or "who would you date out of them" yk that stuff and I just never got it, so I picked a random one and just went along with it. I didn't understand why I didn't like any of them despite people saying these things, I thought it was just nothing until I watched Jaiden's video and it just clicked. Why I never really liked liked anyone. It was all just peer pressure or pressure from my brain to like someone even if I didn't and if I genuinely felt really excited about someone it was just because I really wanted to be close to them not have a romantic relationship with them. But now I'm over-thinking and am confused if I am aro/ace or if I'm just convincing myself I am. 

IDK MY BRAIN IS WEIRD I CAN'T TRUST IT ON ANYTHING AT THIS POINT