Uh. Am I just supposed to talk?
uh... things... life... yk the usual. I guess I've just recently been wanting to do a lot of thing but I've just felt like eugh about it yk, and the longer I wait to start those things the more I get mad at myself for not starting them causing me to be sadder which makes me not wanna start them more and I just feel sorry for myself and it's just an infinite loop. Also I have unfinished work and school is really ruining uh... here lemme list all teh things school is ruining:
1. my mental health
2. my physical health
3. my hygiene
4. my plans
5. my spiritual everything
6. me
7. my braincells
8. my life
9. my eating
10. my sleep schedule
11. everything
12. my creativity
13. my health
14. my feelings
15. THE ENTIRE UNIVERSE
but everyone says "going to school is gud for u. Trust me you'll be happy you went when you're older" and I'm just like SHUT UP you clearly don't know anything so why don't you put a sock in it. I got -87% smarter because of school.
I know I've tried it but it still seems like such a big task even if it's just idk drawing a line. I just want to get in bed. Lay down. Really feel the comfort and sleep for 12 hours straight then wake up and feel refreshed and like my sleep was so nice and energizing. Then I'll have the motivation to actually do something. But we all know that's never gonna happen because
1. school
2. bedtime procrastination
3. insomnia
4. anxiety
5. sick
