Posted January 16, 2024 by hankwizard
"WOAH! A PUNKLIZARD POST?!"
Yeah! It's been a while. Things have been hectic since Mosquito Highway- to put it bluntly: school + job = YEEEEOUCH! I had to take some time to figure out myself creatively.
Don't worry, I'm still making things. In fact, I write constantly! But a lot of it... doesn't get posted...? This is due to a multitude of things: most stuff I make is really self-indulgent and weird and experimental, so I tend to keep it to myself... And I have a bad habit of shelving stuff just because I'm not 1000% on it. I realized recently that I wanna start casually posting my writing again- so I'm doing it! A good start, I think, is taking something I shelved a few years ago and throwing it out there.
"Why was this shelved?"
Ok: I have made a discovery... WELL, I figured this out a few years ago, but: TRYING TO MAKE STUFF FOR LIT MAGS IS REALLY STRESSFUL!!!
Oh god, the deadlines- so, Inspirez-Moi was written during a time where I REALLY WANTED TO BE IN A LITMAG/ANTHOLOGY!!! I wanted to make some friggin money, okay? So I'd scour for mag openings and write stuff within the allotted time that fit the theme, hoping to catch some cash. Of course, I got into none, because my heart wasn't in it! Hell, most of these money projects didn't even end up finished (blech). Inspirez-Moi was written for a queer gothic horror anthology... but here's the thing?
I do not read Gothic Horror.
Yeah, so I basically just watched a bunch of gothic horror films, read some manga, then kinda... Went off the shits writing this? It was grueling. I edited this thing so many times I ended up hating it- my friends (my lovely beta readers <3) got to see me shrivel. So, when it got actually finished (CRAZY?) and rejected (weh, no money!) I just kinda threw it to the side and didn't look at it again.
Until recently! I read through it after... Oh god. Three years?! And realized that although it's not what I usually make, it has value! I did my FINAL REVISION and posted :3 Hopefully, this is the start to more casual posting of stuff that has escaped the clutches of my perfectionism.
Anyways: I have more in the works... Not involving characters from this story (i hate writing historical fiction. I think I did a decent job, but it's so hard!), but with many, many stories/games I wish to post... Some of which being messy! So get excited.
Punklizard out.
PS: Fun fact! I have very distinct memories of writing almost everything in my library... EXCEPT THIS. I DO NOT REMEMBER WRITING MOST OF INSPIREZ-MOI! It's as new to me as it is you.