Posted May 11, 2022 by D.Bonner
Hey guys,
You may have noticed that I came off of the grid for a few days, long story short. I got into it with another user on this site, they reported me for gaslighting blah blah blah. Now, I'm back! and I've made a couple of changes, as a reflection of things happening in my life. So, I started going back to therapy recently (yes, all the best looking people have deep rooted trauma, didn't you know? lol). So, I have new therapist now, she's pretty cool and after talking to her she has pointed something out to me. Now, I attend therapy for depression and a few other things though, after speaking to her. She has since stated that I may have a possible misdiagnosis, she thinks that based on my thought patterns, behavior etc. That I may have ADHD, which would honestly explain A LOT, from my impulsive decisions (like releasing 6 games at once), my endless amount of hobbies, which I honestly enjoy, yet have not fully committed to any of them.
My inability to maintain focus, yet becoming so hyper focused on one thing, to the point where I neglect my basic needs, and other much more urgent tasks etc. Suddenly everything started to make sense, since then she has given me ways to cope with my everyday life. As if I were diagnosed with ADHD, to see if any positive changes can be made, without going through all those tests, referrals etc. (Which was one of the many reasons why I stopped attending therapy in the first place, it was tiring after awhile.) Anyways, one of the tasks she has given me is to minimize any excess in my life, things I have added on out of mere interest or impulsiveness. Including the amount of games I have released, which is why I will only be working on Alpha, Beta, Omega and Vice Virtue (Formally known as: 'Unlawful Acts: Corrupt Virtue').
Now make no mistake, it pains me to do this and honestly, I was just going to ignore this task of hers at first. But, I'm at that age and stage in my life where things have got to give, it's gotta get better, it has to. And, that involves doing some hard work on my part, by tackling the root of the problem.....which is me. So, I will be doing the monthly update for May, for both games mentioned above for this month, rather than the others that I originally had planned. I'm sorry if this disappoints anyone, and I understand any frustration you may have but, I've got to do what's best for me.
Thank you.